so i haven’t switched my phone on at all today (so far), i’ve been vegging out and just watching the last 10 episodes of 90210, it’s one of those rare shows where the 2nd season is better than the 1st, and i think the girl who plays Adrianna, Jessica Lowndes, is superrrrr preedy~~

so i’m gonna be taking the SAT on dec 5th, wish me luck! i have been consistently getting scores between 2120 and 2200, i’m seriously so disappointed, the math questions are ridiculously easy (for any self-respecting asian kid / kid living in asia) but yet, i’ve forgotten most of it, like the rules and theorems regarding trig and geometry, mostly cause i dont really like trig and geometry, i’m more into algebra. it’s seriously killing me that calculus or even pre calc isnt tested in the SAT, cause differentiation and integration is like the only math thing that i’m good at, doing calc exercises are so therapeutic! can’t say the same for functions and trig and geometry and especially series and polynomials (yes, practically every other aspect of math).

so after the SATs, i have a jam-packed december schedule! off for OCIP in JB from the 7th to the 11th, can’t wait! then 13-18th i’ll be in bangkok shopping, then 26 dec to 2nd jan hong kong and macau (omg macau is u-kiss’ xander’s homeland! i love xander!) with my mum’s side of the fam, then back in the motherland for JAE to poly (psych, swinging between NP and TP), then off to Melbourne/USA for 2-3 months cause my dad wants to become a certified dog trainer so he wants to take courses on dog training in either of those countries. yeah, i know, LULKATZ (or should i say LOLDOGS…forgive my lame attempt at making a joke), but hey, 2 months overseas in a nice service apartment, great food, great weather, me being left to my own devices during school hours (my my, what a role reversal), i won’t complain. i mean, spring and fall are, to me, PERFECT. the best scenery, best weather, best humidity! winter = too dry, summer screams sticky! (well at least in equatorial countries).

i have to take the SATs again in January, probably while i’m overseas (yes i’ll still be studying), just cause i believe i’ll do better the 2nd time round. my dad wants me to apply to prep schools in new england. seriously, i remember i’d always wanted to go to boarding school in new england when i was an SC girl and so many of my peers had transferred there or at least dreamed of doing so, i merrily hopped onto the bandwagon. my dad had always disallowed it cause i was “too young”. even after secondary school, before i started J1, i still wanted to go there. now, less than a year later, i’m suddenly, miraculously, not too young anymore.

his logic? 17 {big gap} 18. yes, 18, the big jump into the mirage. “wow, now i’m 18, wow wow wow”. well, there really isnt that much of a difference, considering how those who smoke and drink usually start in JC or upper secondary (of course, i’m excluding hardcore gangsters). the only difference is that at 18, kids can do these things legally. at 18, we’re still schoolkids. it’s just a big fuss, cause of legal things and technicalities, like when you’re 18, things that you sign suddenly become legally-binding and not void anymore.

i think maturity depends on the individual, no? some people are still brats at 18, yes, i’ve seen such people.

strangely though, the thought of attending boarding school doesn’t seem all that appealing anymore. you’re stuck in the same place until you finish your high school education, you can’t really sign up for extra, FUN, activities cause you’ll be in some campus the whole time. like, i was thinking of signing up for singing lessons just for fun, just cause it’s a hobby of mine, much like i wanna start playing guitar again too. it then occurred to me, however, that if i get accepted into boarding school, granted, my academic future will become much brighter, but i won’t get to like, do anything there other than study. sure i’ll have a CCA, sure i’ll party, but those things aren’t like piano lessons, not like regular sessions where you just get to indulge in your hobby or to some extent, passion, you know? i don’t wanna be somewhere so far from a city. fine, to people living in big countries, it may not seem far, but for me, it’s almost like being trapped.

but i know that if i get accepted (thats a fucking big IF lol) i’ll go. it’s whats best for me. it’s one of those things where i realise hey, what is the most important to me? of course, my heart and head will tell me different things, like freedom VS grades, Poly where i’ll probably go even further downhill VS Boarding school where i’ll have to start over and deal with politics all over again and i’ll be the new kid in a place where everyone else already knows each other.

but for now, i’m not deciding anything, IF i get to go for interviews with the prep schools, i may even get to spend a week in boston or something, i always thought boston was like a cooler NYC. new york is such an uptight place.

i wont plan until i get back my SAT scores. no point getting sad over being shipped away if in the end i get rejected right? *guffaw*

if things go right, i may even get to spend 4 days in South Korea! 2 months in OZ obv. beats 1 week in Korea, my dad wants me to choose, but i think my dad and i  will be able to reach a compromise. can anyone say HELL TO THE YEAHHHHHHHH~~~~JYP building, HERE I COME!!!

it’s no secret, i am SO DESPERATE to infiltrate a JYP or SM building to see K-pop idols in action, i won’t even mind queueing up for an entire day to audition with kpop celeb wannabe hopefuls, i’ll even risk possibly getting mauled by ruthless frank judges. but hey, i won’t understand half of what they say anyway, so really, i have nothing to lose even if they verbally abuse me, unless they speak really slowly, cause thats the only way i’ll understand them lol.

i remember in 2008 i wanted to audition, but then i realised i’d left my dad at starbucks nursing his latte for half an hour, all by himself, i felt so guilty, i gave up queueing. biggest mistake of my life, cause this girl who auditioned wrote online that she saw SNSD practicing.

note: i dont wanna get accepted. i just wanna set foot into those buildings OMG OMG! i mean, it’s where the stars WORK! 2PM, WHOOOOOOO!!

so yeah, i’ve been a busy bee, studying for SATs, going to like many countries after that, possibly prep school, possibly poly (if i  go poly, i’m so gonna wear leggings every day. they’re my guilty pleasure LOL)

sorry for this long and rambling and very show off post, but i’m so EXCITEDDDDDDDDD

i’ll update again soon (does anyone even read this? LOL)

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